The day has gone and night has come with dark and starry skies. From empty roads and street lamps, and trees that seem to sigh.
There is a calm, and sort of peace that helps us all prepare. For untold dreams and nightmares that might give us a scare.
We close our eyes, and make a wish, of travels we may take. Beyond this world and far away, were barriers we will break.
Forgotten memories and thoughts, that swirl like oil and water. Things blur and mesh together, becoming blobs of color.
But on and on our dreams may go, they never want to end. With princesses and fairies that want to be our friend.
But to an end they all must come as sad
Demons demand to take control of me.
Day by day they close the distance, to reach out and grab ahold of me.
Playing with my senses, obscuring the truth to frighten the strongest parts of me.
Unfailingly constant where ever I go admiring from a distance, anticipating my next move.
Sensing judgmental eyes on me, forcing me to fabricate beliefs that I've lost control.
Catching a glimpse of them in the shadows, in the cold, and in my dreams.
Influencing my mind with screams of hate, isolating me to a world of worthlessness.
Slithering under my skin, into my soul, slowly killing me from the inside out.
The desires to let go are strong. To
My heart aches for what..I don't know. My chest feels hollow like something has been ripped out of it. I feel this unbearable pressure on my soul and it scares me. I feel so out of place in my world, like I don't belong anywhere. I can't seem to find my place anywhere. I hurt deeply but no one sees it, no one understands it because they aren't in my world. There are no words for what I don't feel, there are no emotions in me. I'm empty of feeling. I'm alone in my world. I no longer feel like I live in my body, I have no body, I have detached my mind and souls from it. My body has been hurt and the pain was too much. My mind is in constant mov
The day has gone and night has come with dark and starry skies. From empty roads and street lamps, and trees that seem to sigh.
There is a calm, and sort of peace that helps us all prepare. For untold dreams and nightmares that might give us a scare.
We close our eyes, and make a wish, of travels we may take. Beyond this world and far away, were barriers we will break.
Forgotten memories and thoughts, that swirl like oil and water. Things blur and mesh together, becoming blobs of color.
But on and on our dreams may go, they never want to end. With princesses and fairies that want to be our friend.
But to an end they all must come as sad
Demons demand to take control of me.
Day by day they close the distance, to reach out and grab ahold of me.
Playing with my senses, obscuring the truth to frighten the strongest parts of me.
Unfailingly constant where ever I go admiring from a distance, anticipating my next move.
Sensing judgmental eyes on me, forcing me to fabricate beliefs that I've lost control.
Catching a glimpse of them in the shadows, in the cold, and in my dreams.
Influencing my mind with screams of hate, isolating me to a world of worthlessness.
Slithering under my skin, into my soul, slowly killing me from the inside out.
The desires to let go are strong. To
My heart aches for what..I don't know. My chest feels hollow like something has been ripped out of it. I feel this unbearable pressure on my soul and it scares me. I feel so out of place in my world, like I don't belong anywhere. I can't seem to find my place anywhere. I hurt deeply but no one sees it, no one understands it because they aren't in my world. There are no words for what I don't feel, there are no emotions in me. I'm empty of feeling. I'm alone in my world. I no longer feel like I live in my body, I have no body, I have detached my mind and souls from it. My body has been hurt and the pain was too much. My mind is in constant mov
She was the quiet sort,
tsunamis tucked
within her eyes,
anxieties pinned
to pottery skin;
she would mold herself
into moonlight butterflies
and glist'ning calla lilies,
pure and white and
beautiful.
and when night cast
itself upon her in
heated, hard'ning flames,
she’d smash herself
upon the rocks
and in morning start
again.
Each day is a struggle,
Each breath fills me with pain.
And each time that I open,
My heart is always slain.
My eyes are full of tears,
The sky is full of stars.
And as I look up at them,
I think only of my scars.
My body feels so warm,
Liquid running from the gash.
And as it pools around me,
I think only of my crash.
My lesion won't stop burning,
My body's unnaturally hot.
I feel like I'm falling to pieces,
Though you would say I'm not.
My chest feels so empty,
I cannot reconcile.
My body is so heavy,
I can only fake a smile.
I can't tell them I am breaking,
So I say I'm fine.
And I just keep hiding,
Carving each design.
Pondering the future
Remembering the past
If I don't calm my thoughts down
I don't know how I'll last
It won't just up and kill me
But make me drag my feet
And scream so none can hear me
In my swirling soul-retreat
I want to scream
Want to yell out loud
I want to shout
Until it parts the clouds
I want to cry
Until it fades away
That's what it's like
To feel like Me, today
This place inside
Just leaves me feeling bent
I miss my mind
Please tell me where it went
Can't seem to talk
Like all my words are spent
Feels like I'm stuck
In this void of malcontent
It's bottled up
I've had enough
Still bottled up
AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH
Someone tell me
Stumbling out into a misty darkness leading to nowhere. Left alone, the silence is deafening... madness is sure to be near.
Nothing is ever clear. Flashes of color that startle the mind, fabricating ideas of what the eyes should see and the ears should hear...madness is settling.
Conflicting chaos of expectations and misguided ideas. Battling for sanity and freedom, but madness is intoxicatingly persuasive.
Paralyzed, actions are impossible. Numbed with the pain of regrets. Forgetting to breath, forgetting to live. Unable to run...madness subdues even the strongest.
Hey, My name is Gabby I LOVE to draw and do photography. I also kind of like to write. Hope you guys enjoy what I have to share and please leave comments!
Favourite Visual Artist
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Favourite Movies
All kinds of movies
Favourite TV Shows
House, Grays anatomy
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Three days Grace, All American rejects, Avril Lavigne, Boyslikegirls, Coldplay, Lifehouse, Blue October...ect
Self prayer
I don't know where to begin...I feel as if I can't hold on to my thoughts and they just float away on wanting's and wishes that could of been. My thoughts have been all over the place and I can't seem to keep hold on them, but I'm going to try to communicate what I need to say.
I'm worried about me, and well let's face it I'm always worried about me and even when I'm doing great and my life is going great I still worry. But lately I can't seem to stop thinking about it, I worry that I have too much on my plate and I am just struggling to hold on and to keep up.
I often feel too much for others and worry too much for others that
I broke down in class...I'm not ok but I don't want to talk about it. I just wanted to let you know. I also wrote a poem earlier today..your not going to like it. I'll let you read it but like I said I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to talk about any of it. I'm just letting you know. And I'm going to sleep but know u love you.
My demons are desperately trying to take control of me
I feel them watching me, making me judge myself for things I can't control
I feel them crawling under my skin trying to slowly kill me from the inside out
These demons, my demons make me see things and feel things that frighten even the strongest part
Ok guys, I know I havent been on here for a super long time but I will be updating soon. I have tons of pictures and im gonna be writing more poems. I have just been super busy with work, and I no longer have time for me haha. Hope you guys like my new stuff!